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Monday, May 25, 2009

Selflessness

Tonight, I hear something that breaks my heart.

108..... that's how many there were.

In this hour, will the selfless rise up?? Jesus, let me be one... =(

There really aren't enough.

There aren't enough people who are willing to stand in the gap.

There aren't enough people willing to sow where they will not reap.

Lord, let me be one. My heart breaks for these, Lord.

There is no such thing as "bad people". There is also no such thing as "good" people. We're all the same. We're all broken people, and we are all in need!!!

Lord, forgive me for my laziness. In the name of Jesus, I break the sin of laziness OFF OF ME!!!! I also break the sin of insecurity OFF of me. I proclaim that my confidence is in JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH! MY ABILITY TO MAKE CHOICES COME FROM HIM TOO!!

Lord, I am broken and with sin.

Pride.

JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS

IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
IN YOU, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!

Jesus, I thank you for your grace.

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Tuesday, May 19, 2009

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Monday, May 11, 2009

Hi...I thought I would write something today

Hello self and others again......... I thought I would write something today......... I used to write a lot when I was younger. Now, I don't really ever know what to write anymore. Perhaps it's because...............I don't want to write my bad things down because if I do, they get "badder". Also, if I write my "bad things" down, people will be like..... anyways.. people will get all these wrong ideas. THEN, if I write how I get over the "bad things" people will also have a bunch of misunderstandings. EVEN WORSE, if I don't say anything at all, they make up their own stories about me. O_O. So.... what can I girl do??? Hope for the best??? Don't say much? Only speak when she feel like it's really important????

Speaking of which........

So... one thing I'm learning lately (amongst the other million things I am learning) is to be BOLD!! when I need to be BOLD!! Be at rest when I need to be at rest. Cry when I need to cry. Be joyful when I need to be joyful. SPEAK WHEN I NEED TO SPEAK!! AND TO SPEAK BOLDLY!!!!!! WITH CONFIDENCE!!!

My true emotions?????? Well.... only one person (aka God) knows how I feel.

Man.. it doesn't matter what I say or don't say. People never hear what I'm actually saying. It's like.. the words come out of me.... go through a filter in their ears and then they understand something completely different.

It's pretty painful.

But oh well.... because everybody misunderstand Jesus, and Jesus just want to love us. In the end, they crucified him when all He wanted to do was to free them from their miseries

This morning... I cried.........twice.
Once, I cried for my students.
Second, I cried for myself.

The result???

I chose to surrender myself to God once again. I surrender myself to You. I cry out for Your will to be done on me. Over and over again... I cried out.. I sang songs. I prayed.

The end???

I feel happy and found.

So what happened?????????????????? That..............secret...... will be left unspoken. Do you know why???

Because................ it doesn't matter what I say................ it has to happen another way.

BTW, sometimes the Bible leaves words out. That's why it takes revelation to understand what's going on.

Do you know how much love was between John the Baptist and Jesus??? Do you know how well they understood each other??? Do you know how well they could read each other's minds???

As a girl.... I always hope that someone can read my mind......

Jesus, my dearly beloved, I want to love you more. Please Jesus, take me and love me in your verdant chambers. I want to know you and to understand you as well as John the Baptist. Sigh.... even if I have to live in the desert place. Lord, I want to be satisfied by your love.

Lord, I also pray that you will make me beautiful and holy. Clean me up, Jesus, so that I may be the MOST BEAUTIFUL BRIDE EVER! Jesus, I do not want to take one step before you. I want to follow you. I do. I do. I do.

Jesus, my dearly beloved, I feel broken =(. Can you make me whole again??? Jesus, I want you to heal me and make me whole so that I may be a beautiful bride.

Jesus, I want to be a beautiful bride. Holy and Shining White. Splendid. Lovely. Complete.

^_^

Jesus, I want to wait for you.
Jesus, I will wait for you.

My Lover, let me sing love songs to you <3
Lead me so that I may be complete in you.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Even if you lead me to the ends of the earth, I say that I want to follow YOU. JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAKE ME AND MOLD ME!!!!!!!!

JESUS, I don't want to be expired. I want to use my youth abundantly.

Please do something to make it fast................ =(

Jesus... I say that I am willing to follow you with my all, but I am scared. And... I can't do it.

But Jesus... HERE I AM!!!!! PLEASE TAKE WHAT I HAVE AND MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT!!!!

Jesus, I trust that Your ways are G L O R I O U S

I love You and I trust You

Lover of my heart......................thank You

You are so good.
Your ways are so high.
Your love is so wide.

........... I have to stop now, but there is a lot more to come ^_^.

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Friday, May 08, 2009

Do Not Forget the Lord

Hi self and others ^_^. I'm going to type this out because I think it's way too important to go by without meditating on the words spoken and written. I was reading my Bible this morning and I came across this chapter...... (I typed every word of this out from the Bible. I did not copy and paste it.)

Deuteronomy 8

Be careful to follow every command I am giving you today, so that you may live and increase and may enter and possess the land that the LORD promised on oath to your forefathers. Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone by on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the LORD our God disciplines you.

Observe the commands of the LORD your God, walking in his ways and revering him. For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land--a land with streams and pools of water, with springs flowing in the valleys and hills; a land with wheat and barley, vines and fig trees, pomegranates, olive oil and honey; a land where bread will not be scarce and you will lack nothing; a land where the rocks are iron and you can dig copper out of the hills.

When you have eaten and are satisfied, praise the Lord your God for the good land he has given you. Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the and of slavery. He led you through the vast and dreadful desert, that thirsty and waterless land, with its venomous snakes and scorpions. He brought you water out of hard rock. He gave you manna to eat in the desert, something your fathers had never known, to humble and to test you so that in the end it might go well with you. You may say to yourself, " My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." But remember the LORD our God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your forefathers, as it is today.

If you ever forget the LORD our God and follow outher gods and worship and bow down to them, I testify against you today tha tyou will surely be destroyed. Like the nations the LORD destroyed before you, so you will be destroyed for not obeying the LORD your God

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Sunday, May 03, 2009

Things are Changing. Can you feel it in the air.

I'm posting this up for myself. It will be a reminder for me..... it'll be written in my history.

xnuzzyx (10:31:53 PM): Hey **********, did you know that God likes you?

********* (10:32:26 PM): yea, i know

********* (10:34:08 PM): but sometime i guess i avoid to face him or talks to him becuz i have too many mistakes

xnuzzyx (10:35:20 PM): but did you know that..........Jesus died for our sins. And he just REALLY likes you and REALLY loves you... that he has freely given that to us

xnuzzyx (10:35:28 PM): we just need to accept it

xnuzzyx (10:35:36 PM): did you kwno that

xnuzzyx (10:35:44 PM): when we accept that..................

xnuzzyx (10:36:05 PM): we experience God's love for real

xnuzzyx (10:36:12 PM): well... I know it sounds really basic

xnuzzyx (10:36:15 PM): buuuuuuuuuut

xnuzzyx (10:36:21 PM): I've made a lot of mistakes also

xnuzzyx (10:36:32 PM): and... I didn't even like myself anymore

xnuzzyx (10:36:59 PM): but... I accepted Jesus's grace............

xnuzzyx (10:37:01 PM): and he clean me up

xnuzzyx (10:37:06 PM): and hug me

xnuzzyx (10:37:11 PM): and take me back

xnuzzyx (10:37:22 PM): and told me that he always liked me.. and still likes me

********* (10:37:39 PM): but the thing is you know you love him, but still everyday you are making the same mistake over and over again. To me i just think it is kinda shalow for us to ask forgiveness every single day yet we didnt even try to abandon our sins

xnuzzyx (10:37:52 PM): m hm

xnuzzyx (10:37:58 PM): but I did abandom my sins

xnuzzyx (10:38:20 PM): but it was cuz I accepted His love for me first

********* (10:38:21 PM): i mean to really try to correct or bad habit or thoughts

********* (10:38:37 PM): or=our

xnuzzyx (10:38:59 PM): I really tried for a long time

xnuzzyx (10:39:03 PM): and I got really depressed

xnuzzyx (10:39:07 PM): becuase I just couldn't get out of it

xnuzzyx (10:39:16 PM): and I beat myself over it

xnuzzyx (10:39:21 PM): but.................

xnuzzyx (10:39:31 PM): anyways....

xnuzzyx (10:39:34 PM): I think it's really important

xnuzzyx (10:39:40 PM): to always get the first thing down

********* (10:40:15 PM): i know, i guess i had this problem long time ago since when i was small. i just can't get over it.

xnuzzyx (10:40:25 PM): it's okay

xnuzzyx (10:40:42 PM): Um

xnuzzyx (10:40:44 PM): well..........

xnuzzyx (10:40:53 PM): I guess I just wanted to remind you

xnuzzyx (10:40:56 PM): that God really really likes you

xnuzzyx (10:41:00 PM): just the way you are

xnuzzyx (10:41:07 PM): with your mistakes and all

xnuzzyx (10:41:16 PM): he didn't call you to be perfect

xnuzzyx (10:41:30 PM): he just called you to be his child

********* (10:42:47 PM): sigh, i havne't heard that for a long time

********** (10:43:06 PM): i know he still cares about me and always will

xnuzzyx (10:43:55 PM): and... the mistakes/sin are not YOU

xnuzzyx (10:44:04 PM): they are things on your that need to be cleaned off

xnuzzyx (10:44:21 PM): so... first accept that God loves you for who you are

xnuzzyx (10:44:29 PM): second.. then you start to hate the sin and clean it off

xnuzzyx (10:45:06 PM): because.. well God can't be close to sin............

xnuzzyx (10:45:10 PM): and we sin everyday

xnuzzyx (10:45:17 PM): little sin... big sin

xnuzzyx (10:45:24 PM): so it's always good to repent

xnuzzyx (10:45:31 PM): humans aren't perfect

xnuzzyx (10:45:41 PM): but... repent.... experience God's love

xnuzzyx (10:45:52 PM): and make a new decision to follow God full-heartedly

xnuzzyx (10:46:05 PM): yup....

xnuzzyx (10:46:15 PM): separate the sin... from you..........

xnuzzyx (10:46:42 PM): so.. God love syou

xnuzzyx (10:46:45 PM): but hates the sin

xnuzzyx (10:46:47 PM): so ...........

xnuzzyx (10:46:52 PM): you should love yourself

xnuzzyx (10:46:58 PM): just the way how God loves you

xnuzzyx (10:47:00 PM): and then hate the sin

xnuzzyx (10:47:26 PM): so... they are separate things

********* (10:48:11 PM): yeah

xnuzzyx (10:48:18 PM): okaaaaaaaaaaay

xnuzzyx (10:48:29 PM): well you can get back to doing your media thing

xnuzzyx (10:48:32 PM): so that you can get to sleep

********** (10:49:41 PM): u know really appreciate you told me all these

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